Lately, I've been keeping busy with work and trying to hang out with all of my friends. But, the last couple of weeks have been hard...especially this weekend past. It's been hard because this weekend past is the 5 year anniversary of when my dad and step mom got together. And, whenever it gets to be this time of the year, I get really sad and very angry, sometimes because it reminds me of the pain that I felt when my dad told me he was with another woman, and to think he's been with her for 5 years, is hard for me.

I mean, I like my step mom, don't get me wrong. But, the pain that my mom went through when he left, and the pain that I felt and I'm pretty sure my sister felt too, is still there. And my step mom is sorta flaunting it, too. I mean, she wrote it in her LJ, and everything. I mean, my dad, my step mom, and some of my step family went camping for the weekend to celebrate, and they left me and my sister out of it. And I don't really feel like a big part of my dad's life anymore.

And, another really sad thing is my sister moved out on July 1st. And that's the day that my dad moved out 5 years ago. All this pain is in me, and a bunch of people don't really see it. Like, one of my step sister's was like "Oh, wow. My mom and your dad have been together for 5 years. That's so cool." But, she didn't even ask if I feel okay. I mean, yeah, it's a special occasion, but it just reminds me that my dad left us 5 years ago. And he has this whole new family now. I'm sad about it, but I can't really let it show around my dad, mom, or step family, because they'd probably think I'm being selfish. I'm not sure if I am or not. But, no matter what, I'm not going to tell them. It'll just put more salt on my wounds.